In life, obstacles often appear when we want to reach our goals. These obstacles could come from out side or in side an individual. The ability to endure and sustain while fighting for our goal is the key to success. What happen to people who don't have those qualities in them? Most of them will stop trying before they reach their goal. They give up! They mightn't realize that they are already closer to their goal, and they could find something that they have been looking for. Is there any special training to pick up these qualities? So that we would be able to have an iron will in our heart, that no mountain to high, or no river to wide, that could stop us from getting what we want.
This might look ambitious to you, but we do need to have this ambition or I'd rather use the term 'iron will' in a moderate way to survive. or else we could be like foams in the ocean, having no sense of direction.
Enriched your knowledge! that's the first step toward endurance. A strong will come from a solid knowledge. If we really know and understand what we want, it could be by knowing all the benefits from what we want, along with that the will is build up. The deeper you know, the stronger it gets.
May the All Mighty give us those qualities and let us find the true happiness in life and the hereafter.
-L-
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Patience in Lancaster
The oxford dictionary explain the word patience as the ability to accept or tolerate delay...
now I am in a place where patience is the only solution for my problem... (this is my blog, so i can write anything i want right?)
oo for crying out loud.. it's so not easy..
it's only been two weeks after that day.. i knew i was going to put my self in trouble.. and why did i do that?? o ya.. it's because of Allah.. or i thought i did.. i have followed my heart after i prayed and made doa.. but where am I now??
i need to learn to listen to my heart carefully.. coz maybe i might have heard it wrong..... Oh The All Mighty.. please help me!
after i went back from NYC on 10th of jan 2011.. i spent most of my time worrying about my projects.. until i finally finished it a day before the deadlines: 18th , 19th, and 24th.. in between those time i managed to enhance my knowledge in Islam and rebuild my eeman by reading some of the article from brother moait.. though some said he's not recommended.. but his words can get me do good stuff for my deen.. so i guess it's still better than nothing..
then on 15th.. i told her about this issue.. she did her job, and looked into it .. and contacted me again a week later.. i said i was busy with school work, so i promised her to give what she wants on tuesday the 25th which is my profile.. i wasn't so sure at that time.. but i did it too.. coz i think if we're not meant to be together then that would be it.. (whilst abandon the other option that might happen)
tadaaa... three days later (on friday the 28th).. another email came.. with his profile in it.... i was in manchester at that time ..at Salford University Engineering building to be exact.... reading that email was like getting a whack on my tummy. ugghh!
i got anxious.. i called her right away.. she tried to calm me down and asked me to pray and make doa to Allah..
I did what she said.. i prayed my first jumat pray there.. and prayed istikarah afterward... and made doa... that got me thinking all day long....... by midnight i found peace on my mind.. and text her about the answer to my pray... she arranged a meeting then we met on sunday afternoon at her house..
btw i was staying in uni dewi's dorm room for 4 days while i was in manchester that week, i arrived on the 27th, went to ashton doing god know what.. hehehe then to uni's place around 9 pm. The next day we went shopping in arndale, and on sat the 29th i went crazy on my own again.. coz she couldn't handle the way i did my things.. well these feet and mind is well trained since i was a little girl...astagfirullah...
back to sunday meeting (on the 30th).. at first there were a lot of silent moments.. but then as the situation got warmer.. i became more comfortable to talk and express my self. it didn't end until late, so many things we had to talk about that made us had to stay over night... this beautiful girl, let me stay in her room.. thanks sweetie...
monday morning came (31st) I went back to lancaster with this new possibilities for my life... I talked to my mom about it..
i made a lot of doa and prays.. until it's all clear on friday february 4th..
I was looking forward to live in US after this master's course is finished but now i've changed... meeting this new person has changed me..
however those (1 supervised meeting, and 1 supervised phone call, 2 times unsupervised chatting, and supervised series of email) are as far as we can go for now.. my father wont marry me until i finish my study.. o thee father.. if only you can see how your little girl is not so little anymore. . that she need him to complete what's missing in her life.
now she need to suck it all in and continue her study.. one deadline on wednesday the 16th
monday the 14th the dissertation proposal need to be done..
but instead of working on it, i wrote this ( writing here is helping her to deal with all these problems... how can it be possible? that is just her thing)
different topics:
I am still waiting for my railcard to come.. i've been travelling to manchester 3 times (jan 15th, 27th and feb 12th) without railcard and waste good amount of money.. i sent out the application on feb 4th.. i hope it'll arrived soon
I opened another bank account on jan 21st.. for insurance, international student ID and rail card..
dear my self,
hey don't judge me, at least i wrote again this month, i tried as detail as i could and it's not as bad as last year..
keep in touch fiiuuhh
L
now I am in a place where patience is the only solution for my problem... (this is my blog, so i can write anything i want right?)
oo for crying out loud.. it's so not easy..
it's only been two weeks after that day.. i knew i was going to put my self in trouble.. and why did i do that?? o ya.. it's because of Allah.. or i thought i did.. i have followed my heart after i prayed and made doa.. but where am I now??
i need to learn to listen to my heart carefully.. coz maybe i might have heard it wrong..... Oh The All Mighty.. please help me!
after i went back from NYC on 10th of jan 2011.. i spent most of my time worrying about my projects.. until i finally finished it a day before the deadlines: 18th , 19th, and 24th.. in between those time i managed to enhance my knowledge in Islam and rebuild my eeman by reading some of the article from brother moait.. though some said he's not recommended.. but his words can get me do good stuff for my deen.. so i guess it's still better than nothing..
then on 15th.. i told her about this issue.. she did her job, and looked into it .. and contacted me again a week later.. i said i was busy with school work, so i promised her to give what she wants on tuesday the 25th which is my profile.. i wasn't so sure at that time.. but i did it too.. coz i think if we're not meant to be together then that would be it.. (whilst abandon the other option that might happen)
tadaaa... three days later (on friday the 28th).. another email came.. with his profile in it.... i was in manchester at that time ..at Salford University Engineering building to be exact.... reading that email was like getting a whack on my tummy. ugghh!
i got anxious.. i called her right away.. she tried to calm me down and asked me to pray and make doa to Allah..
I did what she said.. i prayed my first jumat pray there.. and prayed istikarah afterward... and made doa... that got me thinking all day long....... by midnight i found peace on my mind.. and text her about the answer to my pray... she arranged a meeting then we met on sunday afternoon at her house..
btw i was staying in uni dewi's dorm room for 4 days while i was in manchester that week, i arrived on the 27th, went to ashton doing god know what.. hehehe then to uni's place around 9 pm. The next day we went shopping in arndale, and on sat the 29th i went crazy on my own again.. coz she couldn't handle the way i did my things.. well these feet and mind is well trained since i was a little girl...astagfirullah...
back to sunday meeting (on the 30th).. at first there were a lot of silent moments.. but then as the situation got warmer.. i became more comfortable to talk and express my self. it didn't end until late, so many things we had to talk about that made us had to stay over night... this beautiful girl, let me stay in her room.. thanks sweetie...
monday morning came (31st) I went back to lancaster with this new possibilities for my life... I talked to my mom about it..
i made a lot of doa and prays.. until it's all clear on friday february 4th..
I was looking forward to live in US after this master's course is finished but now i've changed... meeting this new person has changed me..
however those (1 supervised meeting, and 1 supervised phone call, 2 times unsupervised chatting, and supervised series of email) are as far as we can go for now.. my father wont marry me until i finish my study.. o thee father.. if only you can see how your little girl is not so little anymore. . that she need him to complete what's missing in her life.
now she need to suck it all in and continue her study.. one deadline on wednesday the 16th
monday the 14th the dissertation proposal need to be done..
but instead of working on it, i wrote this ( writing here is helping her to deal with all these problems... how can it be possible? that is just her thing)
different topics:
I am still waiting for my railcard to come.. i've been travelling to manchester 3 times (jan 15th, 27th and feb 12th) without railcard and waste good amount of money.. i sent out the application on feb 4th.. i hope it'll arrived soon
I opened another bank account on jan 21st.. for insurance, international student ID and rail card..
dear my self,
hey don't judge me, at least i wrote again this month, i tried as detail as i could and it's not as bad as last year..
keep in touch fiiuuhh
L
Thursday, January 6, 2011
4,5,6 Jan 2011
I've been struggling hard with my homework lately (tapi boong!)
didnt go anywhere this past 3 days... only home..
but the interesting parts are the food..
day 4th my uncle made soufflé for breakfast... with creamy sauce.. yummy
day 5th he cooked fish fillet with thousand island sauce and shabu-shabu soup with shrimp ball.. you can't imagine how good it was.. seriously..
day 6th a.k.a today he made pancake.. with butter and egg
well it feels like living in 5 star hotel...
thanks om..
sincerely,
L
didnt go anywhere this past 3 days... only home..
but the interesting parts are the food..
day 4th my uncle made soufflé for breakfast... with creamy sauce.. yummy
day 5th he cooked fish fillet with thousand island sauce and shabu-shabu soup with shrimp ball.. you can't imagine how good it was.. seriously..
day 6th a.k.a today he made pancake.. with butter and egg
well it feels like living in 5 star hotel...
thanks om..
sincerely,
L
Monday, January 3, 2011
wooo... its January 2011 already..
i have to mention that i met a great teacher on th 1st of January.. he has a mission to build a strong muslim generation.. we call him brother moait.. check out his website: www.noora1.com find out more about him and his mission.. it might change your perspective about life in general.. my uncle took his children there and i tag along.. it turned out great!!
then on 2nd of january.. i spent all day in my Uncle's apt in NYC.. my cousin is there too.. we have a great time.. he's an abstract painter.. cool isnt it?
then on 3rd day of this year i went back to my teacher's house.. he tried to clean my mind from all the corrupted knowledge ...
well i hope it last forever.. he gave me some homework too..
anyway I'll try as hard as I can to keep my days in 2011 recorded here..
wish me luck!
then on 2nd of january.. i spent all day in my Uncle's apt in NYC.. my cousin is there too.. we have a great time.. he's an abstract painter.. cool isnt it?
then on 3rd day of this year i went back to my teacher's house.. he tried to clean my mind from all the corrupted knowledge ...
well i hope it last forever.. he gave me some homework too..
anyway I'll try as hard as I can to keep my days in 2011 recorded here..
wish me luck!
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Various Trip from January to June
....... Warwick Castle's Garden in January 2010 .........
.........Stratford upon Avon - Shakespeare's Grave........
.... Stratford upon Avon - Shakespeare's Birth House.....
These were my first excursion in UK and my 4th day in Cambridge. I still had an incomplete information about the public transportation schedule and the street in Cambridge that day. I had to walk for 1 and half hours from my host family house to school, because I had no idea that there is no bus working on Sunday before 9.10 am and I had to be in school at 8.30 am. They almost left me behind. Thanks to Jane and Patricia, it didn't happen.
At first, We were going to visit Oxford, but the school, who organised this trip, changed it. I heard several vague excuses, it is either snow stormed in Oxford or the Oxford tour guide was in an accident and got a broken leg. I had no idea about those two places, when we headed from school, but it turned out great. I was playing snow ball fight there (my first experienced!) Thanks God The All Mighty. Lol
........Manchester - Old Trafford .........
On the following week I visited my relative in Manchester. I felt grateful because My roommate Jessica from China and my class mate Anne-sophie from France want to tag along with me... the more the merrier right?
.......London - Buckingham Palace.......
That was the second time I visited London in my whole life. I guess it was pretty much the same as 6 years ago. Fikri, Joaquin and I were there to explore university in London. However, in the end none of us chose to study in London, beside its pricey living cost, it was just too crowded.
..............Norwich Castle...............
It was an unplanned visit to Norwich. I got left behind for real this time, sadly because less than a minute late. They left me and Fikri in University of East Anglia (UEA -- near Norwich) after UEA International Open Day. I was showing Fikri Islamic society room a.k.a Masjid. He was in the toilet when the rest of Muslim students went there. Therefor we needed to take the train back to Cambridge from Norwich Station. However, I feel glad because if they hadn't left us, I might have never visited Norwich. LOL
........London - Russel Square on February 2010..........
There is a story behind this photograph. This was the third time I went to London. I was wandering London all alone, until I get lost, and found this park. I decided to sit there for a while. Whilst i was there, I saw a father and daughter scene that made me cry a tear or two. LOL yea.. so this girl went in to the pond while her father had told her not too. but she ignored her father and run toward the fountain and went in anyway. Then his father strongly told her that what she did is bad, it was cold that day (and she made her feet wet) she could've got sick. that's when she went away again from her father, and cried on that bench.
Her father just stared at her for a while, until couple minutes later, he approached her and hold her in his arms.
It was a Father and a daughter moment that made me cried. hiks
......Edinburgh View from Calton Hill on March 2010.......
...........Edinburgh - Hollyrood Abbey............
Three days trip to Edinburgh with my school mates. What an amazing escapade!!! Staying in youth hostel with other young traveller from all over the world. It doesn't matter even though I need to share bedroom and washroom with 14 other people. More over, they also have sharing kitchen, with modern kitchen set. On the first night there, the wind blew so hard it broke my digicam.
...............London-Trafalgar Square April 2010......
This was my forth time in London. I was with le' Devi and le' Adi. This time I went there to do self registration at Indonesian embassy. It is important for Indonesian citizen in UK to register them self, in case they encounter any problem including legal problem while we were there.
.............................Nottingham.................................
Meeting my college friend from Padjadjaran Uni at Nottingham "Diah" and then we were attending Kibar Spring gathering
........................Ely-Peacock Tea Room............................
.................Cambridge-St.John College..................
It was jogging time around the historic college of Cambridge University
.............Cambridge-Fitzwilliam Museum May 2010.............
...................London-Tower Bridge..................
I was taking the new Indonesian student around the city of London... but then Mapa and Joaquin want to Join us.. I was the photographer for that picture
........ London-Heathrow Tube June 2010............
A Journey home with my best friends, they just took me to Heathrow airport though not to Jakarta.
Thanks guys
Love
L
.........Stratford upon Avon - Shakespeare's Grave........
.... Stratford upon Avon - Shakespeare's Birth House.....
These were my first excursion in UK and my 4th day in Cambridge. I still had an incomplete information about the public transportation schedule and the street in Cambridge that day. I had to walk for 1 and half hours from my host family house to school, because I had no idea that there is no bus working on Sunday before 9.10 am and I had to be in school at 8.30 am. They almost left me behind. Thanks to Jane and Patricia, it didn't happen.
At first, We were going to visit Oxford, but the school, who organised this trip, changed it. I heard several vague excuses, it is either snow stormed in Oxford or the Oxford tour guide was in an accident and got a broken leg. I had no idea about those two places, when we headed from school, but it turned out great. I was playing snow ball fight there (my first experienced!) Thanks God The All Mighty. Lol
........Manchester - Old Trafford .........
On the following week I visited my relative in Manchester. I felt grateful because My roommate Jessica from China and my class mate Anne-sophie from France want to tag along with me... the more the merrier right?
.......London - Buckingham Palace.......
That was the second time I visited London in my whole life. I guess it was pretty much the same as 6 years ago. Fikri, Joaquin and I were there to explore university in London. However, in the end none of us chose to study in London, beside its pricey living cost, it was just too crowded.
..............Norwich Castle...............
It was an unplanned visit to Norwich. I got left behind for real this time, sadly because less than a minute late. They left me and Fikri in University of East Anglia (UEA -- near Norwich) after UEA International Open Day. I was showing Fikri Islamic society room a.k.a Masjid. He was in the toilet when the rest of Muslim students went there. Therefor we needed to take the train back to Cambridge from Norwich Station. However, I feel glad because if they hadn't left us, I might have never visited Norwich. LOL
........London - Russel Square on February 2010..........
There is a story behind this photograph. This was the third time I went to London. I was wandering London all alone, until I get lost, and found this park. I decided to sit there for a while. Whilst i was there, I saw a father and daughter scene that made me cry a tear or two. LOL yea.. so this girl went in to the pond while her father had told her not too. but she ignored her father and run toward the fountain and went in anyway. Then his father strongly told her that what she did is bad, it was cold that day (and she made her feet wet) she could've got sick. that's when she went away again from her father, and cried on that bench.
Her father just stared at her for a while, until couple minutes later, he approached her and hold her in his arms.
It was a Father and a daughter moment that made me cried. hiks
......Edinburgh View from Calton Hill on March 2010.......
...........Edinburgh - Hollyrood Abbey............
Three days trip to Edinburgh with my school mates. What an amazing escapade!!! Staying in youth hostel with other young traveller from all over the world. It doesn't matter even though I need to share bedroom and washroom with 14 other people. More over, they also have sharing kitchen, with modern kitchen set. On the first night there, the wind blew so hard it broke my digicam.
...............London-Trafalgar Square April 2010......
This was my forth time in London. I was with le' Devi and le' Adi. This time I went there to do self registration at Indonesian embassy. It is important for Indonesian citizen in UK to register them self, in case they encounter any problem including legal problem while we were there.
.............................Nottingham.................................
Meeting my college friend from Padjadjaran Uni at Nottingham "Diah" and then we were attending Kibar Spring gathering
........................Ely-Peacock Tea Room............................
.................Cambridge-St.John College..................
It was jogging time around the historic college of Cambridge University
.............Cambridge-Fitzwilliam Museum May 2010.............
...................London-Tower Bridge..................
I was taking the new Indonesian student around the city of London... but then Mapa and Joaquin want to Join us.. I was the photographer for that picture
........ London-Heathrow Tube June 2010............
A Journey home with my best friends, they just took me to Heathrow airport though not to Jakarta.
Thanks guys
Love
L
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
The Cambridge Story
The moment i have long for my whole life... standing in a snowy road... it was so cold at that time but i was too exited to feel it since it was also my first snow shower experienced... Subhanallah.. one of my dream came true..Cambridge welcomed me and Jane with snow, our taxi driver said that it hadn't been snow for days, but last night it snowed again. It was like they understand me... :p
This was a winter scenery picture in front of 37 Akeman Street, my home for the past 5 months. In that house I met Jessica Yan Zhang and Daniela Hurtado then become quite close to them. Mr and Ms Miah was a kind host, they are Muslim, an immigrant family from Bangladesh. Aunty Nessa (the grandma) and their kids: Anisa and Rahaj are living there as well. In conclusion, I feel so lucky to be able to live with them. The house is tidy, the food was good and tasty (even though it was different from Indonesian food, i still got to meet rice everyday) and the roommate is so nice.
L
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