Beautiful TX

A couple months ago, i dreamt about going to han's apartment in Houston, TX with her sister nisa. Han was sick when we got there. n i met my middle school friend Sansha there (at han's apartment) it's kind a weird though..
anyhow, while we were excitingly planning to explore the city and one of the college there, han was packing her clothes, and getting ready to go back to Indonesia. then i woke up..

Yesterday, i had a similar dream, but this time her apartment was different, n look more like a house in a country side than an apartment in the city.. the view from the terrace is so beautiful, all the trees and the roof was covered in snow... it's winter time, as far as i know there is no snow in TX.. well it's another weird things from my dream.. as i admiring the view, it's getting even better when the snow start falling again.. i appreciate my recent life but i wish i'll sometime experience that moment in my real life..


-L-

Scared to Death..

For your information, i exaggerated a little bit the title of this posting, so it might get your attention. =)

well, right at this moment, i do feel anxious..
but i can understand why it happened to me..
i guess I'm worried about my future,will i ever get out of the circle of procrastination??!!
it'll be so hard to get out when u don't have anything matter to motivate u to break the circle.
n i haven't found one now..

this lyric below "the climb" from Miley Cyrus is fit for describing my situation now..

I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head sayin,
You’ll never reach it,
Every step I’m taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side…
It’s the climb…

The struggles I’m facing,
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I’m not breaking
The pain I’m knowing
But these are the moments that
I’m going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on,

-L-